Friday, December 20, 2013

It's Time (to announce) "it's a very fake of me!"

Assalamualaikum and very good evening all (Malaysia's time now is already 11:00P.M.)

How are you guys getting on? It's been a year, I didn't update any great sense of feeling here. How I miss you my blog. The thing is, the grower I am, the academicer should I become. But, I can't lie to myself, that being a simple soul +giving of.infinite.LOVE is a never fake of me. Sometimes somehow in stupidity, I still want to say "sorry" for being, even though, tell me how hard it could be, I still think I'm the one should be blame of having this "tak reti bahasa" of heart feeling.

Especially when I have found a common ground with these newly known guys to me: Imagine Dragons. Yesterday was the day that I listened carefully to their musical soul "It's Time." I was watching TV with my auntie family in Bangi when my ears caught a thematic background song for UNIFI ads. The music was a slow extistence, when suddenly my ears attached too much to the vocal and immediately I called Luqman to find the thematic song for me! Like he did when I attached too much to the FRISO ads music (which it is a brand song for the product and not taken from any band or music in the world).

Here the official video:

Okay, back to the "very fake" topic, haha! LOL
Can I start nag-nag so artistically?
-بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم-
The title is rare.
Just like the one who wrote.
Rare of the species,
Doesn't mean it must be unique.
Uniqueness makes it fair enough.
To sometimes be isolated.
By it very self.
Just like Moon, in the sky-high.
It's a very fake of me,
That I will leave you one time.
Even it's never a fake,
That I can't understand you somehow. 
But I am a little soul which is rare,
I can't manage one thing that is I swear,
True. Never fake. 
I'm just special by my own,
No one shall ever clone,
value, and it will be grown.
Don't you stop chasing me,
Don't you stop thinking of me,
Don't you realize that I never fake for you? 
Just like Moon, in the sky-high 
Handle me with care; it's fake
Handle me nowhere, a bit late
Handle me now and
it's time to begin? (sound familiar here..? hehe)
Feeling me; the never fake? 
Never hurt me no more,
Cos it's a very fake of me,
To leave you. 
Just like Moon, in its lovely lonely

(I guess if Imagine Dragons want to sing this poem, better they change "in its lovely lonely" back to "in the sky-high," girlish pulak bunyinya, LOL ini mood perasan but still a dream can be true! ameen..!!)

..and to a lovely me, that really means like this: "when God is your reason to live, you will never have a reason to quit."

Wah wah...giler syahdu mek ni? :) "Saja, biasa aja." The most problematic with the artistic poetic is that, the mood to feel the whole heart ain't easy, basically when you want to transfer the meaning into music. Acece..pakar nampak? Hey! Don't try to deny. Here's the interview with Dan Reynolds  the vocalist about the making-up of "It's Time" song. To me, transfer into the life music of a secret place. Hehe. Yeah, let only God knows.

Well, let me copy-paste a part of the interview which talked about the lyric:

"It's Time" is really being a lot on the radio -- at least on the station I'm listening to. It has the wonderful ability of not getting under my skin even though I've heard it a bunch of times. So, first off, congrats on that. Second, what was the songwriting process behind that amazing track?
[Laughs] Well, thanks! There's so many times you wake up at 3 a.m., grab a recorder on the iPhone and say something -- a lyrical idea or melody -- and then you lay it out in logic later on and sometimes it makes no sense. We sat with "It's Time" for a year or year-and-a-half. Sometimes you just have to let a song sit for awhile. There's just something really special about it. I wrote it during a very hard time in my life. I had dropped out of college, and I was just sitting down at my computer, and I came up with this rhythm. And the words just wrote themselves. I knew I had something special coming.
When a song is most honest and most raw that's when you know you're doing something right. A lot of my favorite artists are able to be in touch with their problems and put it through melodies. It happens all the time with bands.
To you guys, here's the full lyric for this song. 
"It's Time"
So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain-check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don't look back
Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain-check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

This road never looked so lonely
This house doesn't burn down slowly
To ashes, to ashes

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

I wanna give some credit to this girl, she wrote "Lyrical Life Lesson: What We Can All Learn From "It's Time" by Imagine Dragons." Happy reading time ya :')

To me, no one can change his or her VALUE that is precious and irreplaceable. "Now don't you understand, that I'm never changing who I am." Be it in any field, a lover of you, a student of you, a father, a mother, a friend, a servant even...just need to be accepted, to be really understood. Above all, to be felt APPRECIATED. God never fails to see your value, that's why He will see the heart and the actions.
As simple as that, actually.

Stay stronger: "So be patient with gracious patience." Al-Maarij (70): 5

Saturday, November 3, 2012

A Lovely You

The Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) teaches us, one du'a by Ummu Salamah:

اَلْحَمْدُ لِلَّه، اَللَّهُمَّ أْجُرْنِي فِي مُصِيبَتِي وَاخْلُفْ لِي خَيْرًا مِنْهَا

(Alhamdulillaah, Allaahumma'jurni fie musheebati wakhluf lie khoiron minha)

"Thank you, Allah. O my Lord! Reward me (for being tested and patient) of this calamity and replace for me a much better (thing, event) than it."

Most people, they get confused while understanding the real meaning behind this du'a. Historically, the du'a was made by Ummu Salamah when her husband died and soon after that Allah replaced for her the best thing ever: marriage to the Prophet. Guys, it was not only that Allah had replaced SOMEONE much better for Ummu Salamah, but the value here was also about an event of being married to the prophet.

In certain cases of our stories, especially which relate to SOMETHING or SOMEONE who has gone from our lives, we tend to understand that we will be given a SOMETHING or a SOMEONE better after that. Well, inshaAllah that is the promise. Having said that, as a Muslim who need to think creatively about the mercy of Allah, sometimes we also must believe that Allah will replace for us perhaps ON THE RIGHT OCCASION and TIME but still involving the same SOMETHING or SOMEONE. 

I experienced this while accepting the news that I will be getting in the university where I pursued my study (BA & other). I really wanted to get in there, but I didn't get in through the first intake. What to do? Hmm.."it's ok walhamdulillah." I believe that I didn't recite this du'a exactly as per mentioned because I didn't know the du'a before, but I did admit within myself that I'm pleased with what Allah had planned for me. And that's it..I felt happy and hope that let it be another good day for me; prepare for Form 6, got other exam in school bla bla bla :-)

The 'miracle' was coming later. Yes I got in, so smoothly and blessedly unlike what I could imagine myself at that time. Sometimes, the thing we don't like happens just because Allah wants to see whether we trust Him or not. Do we really thank Him? Do we really think positively about His decision? Well short-cut to the end of the story: I didn't manage to go to the university with the first batch, only with the second batch (which I was been told before that when I tried to appeal that it seemed to 'cannot be true for a LKJ student to be a literature student'). Here, what I learned was that Allah wanted me to appreciate friends who were not be accepted to get in any university and they were very good people (mashaAllah), Allah also wanted me to take the responsibility as a student with a humble heart - start all the way as a 'know-nothing' pupil and to not feel-good of being a fresh university student, and above all, He actually wanted to replace for me a much better RESULT and I was out-of-sudden being among the 'famous' juniors in the senior class. MIRACLE subhaanallah:-) 

Here the right thing to ponder:
Life lesson is never available in any course in any university in any place in the world. Trust me. The way we accept how life is meant to us must always be different and seen through a hidden scope. When we see through our hearts, we will value the things which are happening surround us more deeply, the people and their goodness, the memory of being with such a wonderful group of people who accept and appreciate you unconditionally. And the best thing ever that can always be happened is, our sincerity in trusting Allah.

"..and the (best) outcome is for (those of) righteousness."

Got to write this down, as just now I drove back with another friend, a junior girl, who I gave a lift and dropped her at the LRT station which is near to the old office of 'Ansaaris.' I shared with her this story and I hope she got something beneficial which can help her in her future undertaking while studying in Perth soon. Sorry guys, no pride involves, just a sharing of an older moment.

This is another way to show that we are always trusting Allah- which by avoiding something (bad or sinful) for the sake of Him.

"Whoever leave something (that Allah dislikes), Allah will replace for him with something (much) better than that (which He likes)."

P/S: Cantik kan gambar ni? :-) Impressed with the presentation, and of course the words (guys I don't know if this is the hadith or the words of scholars etc. but honestly it is a true advice).

Tuhanmu pesan: "Percaya padaku."

"A Loyal Heart"

"Kunampak Bulan sedang malu-malu kucing untuk mempamerkan wajah ayunya yang sebenar. Masih kecil kerana sedang berada jauh, sedang berlari-lari mendapatkan diriku. Hari ini Bulan semakin matang, tidak lagi kebudak-budakan seperti hari-hari sebelumnya. Esok lusa Bulan pasti bulat penuh; menunjukkan bahawa itulah penampilan sebenar si cantik jelita."

Wah wah..ayatnya sungguh 'guilty pleasure.' I love this term, it came from a junior of mine who I met first time last year at one Islamic course in KL. Alhamdulillah, TQ Allah for a still-go-on sisterhood. Hari ini, genap seminggu Aidiladha meninggalkan aku. Cukup tenang ia pergi tanpa menoleh dan menangis rindu. Aku pun berperasaan yang sama; kami sama-sama bergembira dan tidak terasa perpisahan ini. Aneh, namun itulah hakikatnya. Why? Aidiladha won't be the same with Ramadan; ia pesta empat hari yang penuh dengan makan minum. Sedangkan Ramadan merupakan pesta sepurnama berlapar dan dahaga. Ramadan (dan Aidilfitri) istimewa dengan cara tersendiri, begitu juga Aidiladha..semuanya adalah cinta-cinta suci yang berpegang janji setia dengan seorang hamba bernama aku. Kutahu Ramadan merinduiku, kerana aku juga rindu padanya. Dan Aidiladha, kami sepakat untuk berpesta lagi tahun hadapan pada hari dan waktu yang sama. Ya, ia ibarat persahabatan yang tak pernah luntur. Setia.

Just imagine, on those Aidiladha days which were special, you got another feeling which was also related to something special. Atau lebih tepat "an event which involved an ordinary someone who had made it something 'special.' penulis nampaknya masih belum mahu membukakan rahsia tersebut. Well don't get upset. This is me: my feeling is a secret place where only God can touch it. So who wants to reach there, let Allah be the love in dia punya hati dulu. Acece...

To be honest, don't judge me based on my suka-suka sentences and sweet-sour smile that I always use to do. Well, that is what you guys will do pun. Singkapan tabir perasaan tiada siapa sudi melawat sekalipun tirai sentiasa terbuka luas. Hmm, tak faham eih? Hehehe..yes I don't want anyone to understand. Like I said, it is a secret place-> full of peaceful water poured from the seventh Heaven inshaAllah :-)

One thing I wanna share, I was missing someone on those Tasyriq days, and the day of Aidiladha. Yes, I missed like I just knew how to miss someone. Sincere. Then, a day later, I got a 'surprise!' from an unknown character to you who told me the right and real thing that actually happened. And that thing was really..really made me aware, that Allah is The Best of all-planners. He knows, and He had already planned it for me very well. This is the thing which I can relate to my prayer: "My Lord, I entrust my affair to You." Even the affair is unseen to me, but I am happy to be who I am being right now, and I accept the consequence of this prayer with an open heart.

Alhamdulillah, I'm happy even there will be some people who cannot understand a little heart of a cute me. Never mind, because like I said: "It is a secret place..."

Never mind and be thankful. :-)


Thursday, June 21, 2012

I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You

Hey, it's Savage Garden!

Well I got a sweet phone call from a junior of mine and she told me she just got married 9-6-12! Baarokallaahu lakuma wa baaroka 'alaikuma wa jama'a bynakuma fie kheir, amiin!

It was an important news to me, yes it really is. Sorry again guys I cannot story2 to you what? why? and importantly who? :-) Aah thanks God, it's always awesome to have the beautifuls standing with. I pray to Allah for her, for her, for her..and today I am the most happiest senior in the world~ <3

Back to the garden..I wanna share this video, don't care about the music and song ya (emm it's not really menarik perhatian hati..hehe but the lyric YES):

Is there any love which you can feel upon someone before you meet that someone? Honestly, while looking at the title before listening to the song, I take a game within my heart..wishing that the song is for me from the (coming) someone LOL, but yeah after I listened to the song, I think I might give this song to him.....hahaha! Cute..because I know who is in my heart: he is an ordinary man who believes in Allah ;-)s Hmm..but it's great if he is the one who dedicates this to me huh? LOL

Islamically, the lyric said: "I am complete now that I found you." Okay then my suggestion: dear husbands/ wives! Dedicate this song to your spouses, make them feel complete like you :-)

MashaAllah, truly madly deeply in a fall-in-love mode, but I don't know who <3 Shhh....!

Hehe..have a (strong) trust in Allah ok? May Allah bless us all. Amiin~


Friday, June 8, 2012

Never thought I'm beautiful..I cute LOL

This is additional to the previous post ok! I said the beautifuls then use the word 'we' to describe them, and not 'they' because for me I like judging people if I use the '3rd name' (betul ke ni..? erm I mean kata ganti nama diri ke-3).

Wah wah beautiful, you don't know you beautiful. Well, yea I don't think I am..but I really most-of-the-time will say to people I am cute (please pronoun: kiyyuuut). To be a good mama is to be a cute like the children..always cute. That what makes me feel CUTE not beautiful. Cute kan?

Ya Robb, ya Robb! Please make the only man who will say I am beautiful the unique one, yeah the only one who will finally change my mind to accept me the beautiful AND CUTE! Hek3..oh his eyes must be sacredly blind mashaAllah! ;-)

I love the motivational song, like this one:

Erk, cantik la pulak budak2 dalm video ni...(mashaAllah. Serve me right if my 'Salafi friends' find out this post...I'm finish. Ahaha!)

"Don't need make up
To cover up
Being the way that you are is enough

Everyone else in the room can see it
Everyone else but you"

Don't feel ashamed when you find you're not beautiful, because you are beautiful
Don't feel small when people surround you say you're not beautiful, because you are beautiful
Don't feel sad when they refuse you by a hint you're not beautiful, because you are beautiful

See? the prettiest hearts..have felt the most pain, which means you never put the blame on them. Yes, you are beautiful loves <3


Thursday, June 7, 2012

Set fire to the rain means "burning the pain and getting rid of it and demolishing it" as Mr. Google told me. Today I 'finally managed' to listen to Puteri Caroline's latest performance. "Saja2 suka suka2" sebab suaranya sungguh unik, sangat matang dalam nyanyian. I was happened to hear the song she sang last Sunday but not paying attention to it. The English song attracted my deep feeling: so nice (sebab tak faham lirik kan, hehehe..) Well yeah it's a love song, and worst it is a frustrated-break-up love song. Which is..of course I don't like it. It's like: "come on guys, frustrated with a gurl??"

By the way, at this very moment I would like to talk about recent life I am going through right now. Forget about the literature for a while, forget about the songs a minute. Paradoxically, life is an art. How should I leave the art then? SET FIRE TO THE RAIN, from my percepective in this matter is totally different ya :-) I, would like to define it like this: "letting go the unneeded feeling(s) your heart hates it, don't fight, just let it go." Sakitnya..apatah lagi setelah puncanya dikenalpasti datang daripada manusia2 yang pelbagai ragam. Well, I can't stop them  to come into my life. It's out of my control. Today, you guys should learn this from me. It's about two things: FRIENDSHIP and TRUSTWORTHY.

Lately, just lately, I am feeling lonely without some great friends who have 'suddenly' disappeared from the stage we are acting on; the same path we take to uphold the way of life. Just like that. Gone. I don't know why. Even deeply in my instinct, I can feel the reason(s) behind. It's okay dear friends, you shouldn't know what it is, because it's not easy to be a judge :-) The first time I got a true instinct, i fought it. I failed. It still came. By the time being, I learned how to control it. Easy: just let it flows. But, one thing I must do is: keep it myself, don't tell others. Previously it hit my mind and heart so much, but now Alhamdulillah the longer I keep it inside the better the vision will be.

I really want to tell you what I feel about this matter, who are involve, who are the friends I mentioned..but I can't. I just want you to learn this: Trustworthy is a lost pearl, and the hand that finds it is the friendship. Only the right and the selected one will i) see it and then ii) try to touch it and after that iii) take it from the dirt and iv) keep it along wherever the feet go. The hand should notice that in the end, it finally v) knows its value.

Friendships is a star right? The brightest star in the world..more than love, more than you yourself. 

I miss them all.

The 3 Idiots yet still can the beautifuls cannot be like them? Well..more than three people involve ya and we are not idiots ;-) Oh before I forget, one thing you must avoid forever is backbiting. If not, you must prepare from now how to 'set fire to the rain'..hehe.

"Friendship is not a big thing, it's  thousand little things.." vH~

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Someone in action for something

It's been some times I didn't manage to update this red-velvet-cake-for-kiddos blog. It sounds childish isn't it? Well, I guess be like a child but smart is much better than be mature but stupid. Red-velvet cupcake, always nicer than vikingHumaira can be to certain people. I wish this blog can bet the cupcake so why not to calling this blog with such a name?

Two days before, or perhaps three days, Uncle Mie suggested a movie entitled 'I Am Kalam.' It was a Hindi movie, but it wasn't an ordinary Hindustani scope of story, it wasn't a love story. I was about a poor boy, Chottu (or Kalam), who never had schooling, never lived surrounded by books or toys. But he has a big dream: to meet the President, who he named himself after the President's name: A.P.J Abdul Kalam. He once said: "I want to wear suit, boot and tie and become a BIG NAME."

Hoho..mere bette Kalam he. Such a great boy huh? I didn't fully watched the movie yet because Opah and the gang had arrived. We were having guests in-the-house! It was Aisyah's birthday so everyone came to celebrate it, Suher prepared Biryani rice and I bought the cordial to serve them! Not a big contribution but worth drink! Hey before that I met my brother Ibrahim, he was soooo happy and I gave him the 'Lovely in Pink' kesayangan....hmm it's okay I can buy new one (sob sob..). Soon after that, Mama Eda arrived with a surprise RED VELVET cupcake (oh no, now you guys know why actually I call this vikingHumaira the red-velvet thingy...hee).

Oh ya...return back to the movie, what impressed me was the intro part of the movie; the opening scene. It said: "Great dreams of great dreamers are always transcendent," by Dr. A.P.J Abdul Kalam.

Hmm, great dream(s)..great dreamer(s). I have dreams, but, am I a great dreamer? Well, this movie supported me to change to be a better person. I will definitely watch the rest part of this movie and perhaps will watch it again and again! Yeah that's me..loyal to the best wisdom things, haha! To me, it has nothing special and the casts are unknown. In fact it doesn't tell about who you are, but it makes a thing special when it teaches you how you should become. It's a process, and the result..we leave it to Allah (Al-Baqarah: 286).

"There is nothing called destiny, everything must be changed by our actions."

Love: vH~