"Kunampak Bulan sedang malu-malu kucing untuk mempamerkan wajah ayunya yang sebenar. Masih kecil kerana sedang berada jauh, sedang berlari-lari mendapatkan diriku. Hari ini Bulan semakin matang, tidak lagi kebudak-budakan seperti hari-hari sebelumnya. Esok lusa Bulan pasti bulat penuh; menunjukkan bahawa itulah penampilan sebenar si cantik jelita."
Wah wah..ayatnya sungguh 'guilty pleasure.' I love this term, it came from a junior of mine who I met first time last year at one Islamic course in KL. Alhamdulillah, TQ Allah for a still-go-on sisterhood. Hari ini, genap seminggu Aidiladha meninggalkan aku. Cukup tenang ia pergi tanpa menoleh dan menangis rindu. Aku pun berperasaan yang sama; kami sama-sama bergembira dan tidak terasa perpisahan ini. Aneh, namun itulah hakikatnya. Why? Aidiladha won't be the same with Ramadan; ia pesta empat hari yang penuh dengan makan minum. Sedangkan Ramadan merupakan pesta sepurnama berlapar dan dahaga. Ramadan (dan Aidilfitri) istimewa dengan cara tersendiri, begitu juga Aidiladha..semuanya adalah cinta-cinta suci yang berpegang janji setia dengan seorang hamba bernama aku. Kutahu Ramadan merinduiku, kerana aku juga rindu padanya. Dan Aidiladha, kami sepakat untuk berpesta lagi tahun hadapan pada hari dan waktu yang sama. Ya, ia ibarat persahabatan yang tak pernah luntur. Setia.
Just imagine, on those Aidiladha days which were special, you got another feeling which was also related to something special. Atau lebih tepat "an event which involved an ordinary someone who had made it something 'special.' Hahaha...si penulis nampaknya masih belum mahu membukakan rahsia tersebut. Well don't get upset. This is me: my feeling is a secret place where only God can touch it. So who wants to reach there, let Allah be the love in dia punya hati dulu. Acece...
To be honest, don't judge me based on my suka-suka sentences and sweet-sour smile that I always use to do. Well, that is what you guys will do pun. Singkapan tabir perasaan tiada siapa sudi melawat sekalipun tirai sentiasa terbuka luas. Hmm, tak faham eih? Hehehe..yes I don't want anyone to understand. Like I said, it is a secret place-> full of peaceful water poured from the seventh Heaven inshaAllah :-)
One thing I wanna share, I was missing someone on those Tasyriq days, and the day of Aidiladha. Yes, I missed like I just knew how to miss someone. Sincere. Then, a day later, I got a 'surprise!' from an unknown character to you who told me the right and real thing that actually happened. And that thing was really..really made me aware, that Allah is The Best of all-planners. He knows, and He had already planned it for me very well. This is the thing which I can relate to my prayer: "My Lord, I entrust my affair to You." Even the affair is unseen to me, but I am happy to be who I am being right now, and I accept the consequence of this prayer with an open heart.
Alhamdulillah, I'm happy even there will be some people who cannot understand a little heart of a cute me. Never mind, because like I said: "It is a secret place..."
Never mind and be thankful. :-)
Vh~
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